Dear Diary,
This morning I cried because a professor gave me some very negative feedback on a paper I wrote. It was shitty paper, and he is a very exacting professor, but still, I was sad.
Then, Efrath and I went out and bought lots of cakes and chocolates which we brought to the office to share with everyone on our last day. Chocolate made me feel better and I stopped crying.
In the afternoon, we hosted the discussion workshop we've spent the last two months here preparing for. I wasn't nervous or anything - mostly cause I was still a bit sad. But then everyone was so positive about our research that I started to feel better and less like a stupid worthless idiot.
Tonight we're going to a party with some friends. There's a guy here who is sort of like Efrath's boyfriend. He is nice and I will miss him, but I imagine she will miss him more.
I am also anxious about going back to Amsterdam. It's stupid, but I am worried that everyone will expect me to be super skinny when I get back, even though I don't think I've lost any weight. I know it's silly to worry about when I am in a country full of starving people, but old habits die hard, I guess.
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