I am so not so good today.
Sick a-fucking-gain.
Today we had our first interview with a Bangladeshi NGO to collect data for our research. It was a total disaster - the guy hardly spoke English and didn't understand our questions. Yet, he still managed to talk at us for 2 hours. Me, all the while, sweating, gripping my stomach, looking for a quick escape.
I seriously thought I was going to loose it: "shut the fuck up you are not answering our questions how the hell do they let you run this place that is supposed to help people when you don't even know what it is that your organization actually does!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGG!!!"
When we were finally able to excuse ourselves, we realized we needed to find transportation back to the office. This led to a 20 minute walk in the hot sun and dust, past putrid smells, past rotting meat, past a rickshaw driver I saw plug one nose hole then lean over and project a stream of chunky snot out the other. I started to cry.
Efrath was very sweet and made me sit down in the shade until a taxi came. She brought me back to the hotel and gave me some saline solution for rehydration. I am very lucky to have her here.
Nonetheless, I still miss Canada today. Especially my parents' house and my mom to push my hair out of my eyes and central air conditioning and my cockroach-free bed with comfortable pillows and my little dog that is so sweet and cuddly and is always extra nice to me when I am sick.
Now I am crying again. I am such a baby. I'm sure I will feel better tomorrow and be embarrassed for this. Sigh.
Hey, sorry that you feel so rotten. I know the feeling - I always get sick when I am travelling and all I want to do is curl up in my bed.
ReplyDeleteDont feel embarrassed for crying either - I have done that too - except in my case I was in Delhi and was just sick and tired of the whole being-away-from-home!
It gets better. You will feel better and once you do - you will be able to focus on what you are there for....
Hang in there. Find some fresh coconut water! Nothing like it on a hot sweaty day!
It's the next day now. I hope your day was better. Just so you know, although I don't always comment, I read all your blog posts. :) And this might be a horrible question to ask and I might be embarrassed but, you wouldn't happen to have a Myspace profile? Anyways, take care and I hope things are better.
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